有时候, 我真的很怀念以前的我.. 天天过着嘻嘻哈哈的日子, 忘记所有伤心的事.. 可能以前我, 伤害了很多无辜的人.. 所以才会有这样的结果. 傻傻的我, 曾经为了你, 放弃了友情; 曾经为了你, 放弃了学夜; 曾经为了你, 我流的眼泪多过笑容; 曾经为了你, 我这两年失去了很多机会… 我也不知道这样会不会值得让我一直等下去… 但是我还是很感激你, 当我需要你时, 你会一直在我身旁.. 尤其是我妈妈进医院的那一夜… 没有你在我身旁, 我也不知道怎么办?? 你每次的回头都会让我不知道该怎么做!! 一时的开心, 一时的苦恼.. 我很害怕你又会回到以前的你.. 一直到昨晚你打给我, 我知道对你的感觉已经不同了… 为何当初的我没有好好的想清楚自已要的到底是什么!! 我很后悔自已最近所放弃的机会… 如果当初我自已想的开, 结果也不会是这样.. 但是一切的"如果"都不存在了..在我心里, 最想念的还是那棵最闪亮的星星.. 不知道他工作一切还顺利?? 没有尝试的了解, 怎么知道不适合彼此呢? 没有相同的兴趣就不能在一起?? 有时候, 人真的很奇怪.. 在得到的时候没有想过要好好珍惜… 等到失去了才想后悔~
有一个人曾经说我很勇敢.. 如果我真的够勇敢, 我会留着面对一切.. 也不会想逃避到现在. 有一个朋友曾经说, 这是一个LOSER的行为. 如果时间能够倒回, 我还是会选择当一个LOSER.. 只是我不会去伤害对我好的人…
珍惜自已现在所拥有的!! 不要等到失去才想后悔… 一切早已来不及回头了~20.09.08 (Satur)
Yeah!! i go shopping again at pyramid today.. while waiting for my fren to come find me, i go try a few dress.. its quite nice n d price is reasonable.. but my dad brain is more "close minded" tat make me din make d decision to buy it.. sob sob.. after tat, i bring my fren go eat at subway which she eat til wanna vomit.. not bcos of not nice but too full.. haha.. after d dinner we together go for shopping again.. she managed to buy a pair of shoes as i only go back wf hand empty.. not tat sad la since i din find anything suitable for myself..hehe.. we going to have supper at hailo which is d usual place i go after shopping.. d place stil ok lo since i don't like to drink too.. i got a lot of story from my frens when i've drunk..hehe..
i prefer d 2nd dress lo.. but i cant buy it.. if anyone interested, can go to Sunway Pyramid "Forever 21" to hav a look..d price is reasonable too.. =p
16.09.08 (Tues)
Today is a sad day.. my little cute puppy, Panda had dead bcos of its fall ill n my mum only notice it at sun.. when my mum bring Panda for injection, the vet already announced it mayb cannot be recovered. if panda can stand for 10days, tats mean it stil can alive.. but it only managed to stand for 2 days only.. i don't dare to ask my mum as i know my mum will be d one saddest.. i stil cant even manage to c u when i go back to Kuching.. sob sob.. ='( my youngest teach me, human sometime have to think positive.. she jz imagine "Panda going to swim at other world".. i think tis is d way to make human think open.. think of other positive ways can help human to think better.. I MISS U, PANDA!!
10.09.08 (Wed)
Today i actually cook spegatti with my sis n roommate.. its seem lik quite yummy lei~hehe.. tis is my 1st time of cooking spegatti.. we had include mushroom, tomatoes, prawn, chicken slice inside... YUMMY rite?? wakaka.. next time when i go back, i planned to cook for my mum.. c how clever was her daughter.. come here study for 2yrs but can know how to cook food for her to eat.. haha..
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